A few days ago, Paul and I walked downtown to get some poutine. There was something we were celebrating. I can’t remember what it was now. Possibly it was the release of my latest Olivia Hawker novel. I have another one out. I have one that comes out every year. It feels like something somebody else does, like someone else’s accomplishment, like a thing that happens in voidspace because Olivia Hawker isn’t my name. When they told me they wanted me to take things in a more literary direction and to do it under a new name, I thought all my dreams had come true. “Great,” I said. “I’m going to write under Libbie Grant from now on. My real name.” But they said, “No; we want the Hawker last name. Pick a different first name.” So I’m still stuck being a ghost, a fake person, a nobody who’s not really me.
Poutine on the waterfront
Poutine on the waterfront
Poutine on the waterfront
A few days ago, Paul and I walked downtown to get some poutine. There was something we were celebrating. I can’t remember what it was now. Possibly it was the release of my latest Olivia Hawker novel. I have another one out. I have one that comes out every year. It feels like something somebody else does, like someone else’s accomplishment, like a thing that happens in voidspace because Olivia Hawker isn’t my name. When they told me they wanted me to take things in a more literary direction and to do it under a new name, I thought all my dreams had come true. “Great,” I said. “I’m going to write under Libbie Grant from now on. My real name.” But they said, “No; we want the Hawker last name. Pick a different first name.” So I’m still stuck being a ghost, a fake person, a nobody who’s not really me.